Dear <<First Name>>,
I guess I meant to write this sooner, but then again, I suppose the time doesn't really matter that much. Sometimes when things kind of fall off schedule, that's what I tell myself: that time is a 'social construct' and fluid anyway. (Most things are fluid, in actuality, isn't that interesting?) Of course, the fluidity of time isn't really a good excuse for running late or missing a deadline, but whatever. It's fine. I think there are some things that never expire though, like, it's never too late to say "Thank you," or to check in with someone just to see how they're doing. Kindness is always right on time.
For the past few days, I've been inexplicably happy. I just wake up that way and the feeling never wears off. That used to be a thing, where I'd start off in a good mood and it would fizzle out by midday and I used to feel like happiness was a feeling that needed to be constantly sustained. Sadness, on the other hand, just fuels itself.
I think the reason for my recent happiness is that lately I feel like my fullest, most honest self. With each person in my life, I am given full room to express a different range of signature facets of my personality. I'm still very used to compartmentalizing my life and my relationships, and I've accepted that I can't be everything to everyone, but I love the idea that everyone fulfills a different role to me. I'm certain I do the same, I just don't know how or to what extent.
In my last letter, I wrote to you about how it's important to know yourself better and to analyze your own thoughts and feelings to maximize your #SelfKnowledge. On that note. Recently I dropped into Barnes & Noble (it's down the street from the art supply store I work at) and flipped through a couple of pages of Dear Data. It's this book by two women who chart various things about their habits and rituals and make personal graphs of the data they collect. One of my friends mentioned the title to me ages ago and I made a note to check it out. It's a really cool concept?
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