How are you?

I have allergies, and everything is blooming. Spring clearly is a jerk. 

I also have General Anxiety Disorder. This strange new world we're living in can send anyone over the edge. It's stressful, and we are having to adapt quickly. 

Loss of jobs, uncertainty, feeling constrained, worry about us, worry about our loved ones, and an overwhelming amount of fear can make our brain do strange things. 

Anxiety is our brain telling us we're in danger, and you need to survive, but a bear is not chasing us. So we buy all the toilet paper and bread. We hoard, we panic, we make up some amazingly scary stories that are typically not true.

I spiraled quickly, I became unreasonable, obsessive, and stuck in my brain. The what if's, and knee jerk reactions were strong. Anxiety quickly became depression. 

Anxiety and depression make up the best stories. They lie better than my 15-year-old when she doesn't want to clean her room. And I believe them because that's what happens when you have depression. 

So I made pom-poms. You read that right. I made pom-poms, and I glued them on a stick. Then I put them outside the shop. 

As I was making my pom-pom flowers, I relaxed. I could breathe, and I was able to shift my thoughts. At this moment I'm fine. I'm more than fine. I am in a place that most people would love to be. I'm quarantined in a craft store with my family! 

I'm going to make more pom-poms flowers. I think Davidson needs it. 

I also decided to crochet some flowers. I think I'm going to yarn bomb the dumpster gate. For some reason that makes me smile. 

I hope you can find something that makes you smile too. Please take care of yourself! 

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