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Of Death & Rebirth
It has been awhile since I have written. I have had the passage in adulthood where I had to become the parent of my parent. My Mom, who had been declining in health in the last year slipped deeper and away from herself. Heaven gained another angel on February 13th, 2019.
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Grief surprises me. I feel as though I’ve been sucked into an enormous black hole that I am trying to desperately crawl out of. The grief comes in random moments, surprising me with a sucker punch emotionally. In this stage, I have found that my creativity and stories in my head have been torn away from my brain from the stress and grief of the last few months. Not having my stories in my head is depressing – truly depressing.
Usually, when stress engulfs me, I can find an escape in my stories in my head. Not so in the last several months. My stories just “went away.” I cannot begin to tell you how frightening this is for me. The stories are such a comfort, and when they are gone, even for short periods, I grieve for their loss as well. The old saying states that “Time heals all wounds.”
I am beginning to find in the weeks since Mom’s death that I am moving into the reality of life without parents. I find it a very odd place to be. As the weeks pass, things aren’t exactly becoming easier, just different. Like the glimmers that spring may soon be upon us, I am experiencing glimmers of a lessening of grief. I am beginning to hear, on occasion, pieces of dialogue and plots for upcoming books. I am planning, quite soon, to open my laptop and the files for books quite soon.
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The fourth book in the Green Man series is approximately two-thirds complete. I would love to finish the book by the end of April 2019. Tides of Blue will be my next challenge to complete in 2019. Upcoming books in 2020 and 2021 will be Planting the Seed, prequel to the Green Man series; Memories of the Sea; and a new, cozy mystery series. Stay tuned.
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