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So...I'm officially living on my own down in Florida.
There are so many thoughts/feelings about all these changes, but a few stand out.
- I'm still happy. Even though I'm way outside of my comfort zone, I am happy with my decision to prioritize living the life I want to live, even if I don't know exactly what it will look like. I'm currently reading a book called "101 Essays That Will Change the Way You Think," by Brianna Weist - and she talks about how the only way to increase your upper happiness threshold (the level of happiness you allow yourself to feel before you self-sabotage and start regressing to your happiness baseline) is by pushing outside of your comfort zone and becoming comfortable with discomfort.
- I think I am polyamorous. This means I believe I can have romantic feelings/interest in more than one person at a time - and I'm interested in exploring relationships where everyone is okay with that. I think a lot of jealousy and communication challenges come from this strange pressure in our society to only ever be attracted to one person - forever. Life is short, I believe we should be able to explore whatever connections catch our interest.
- I still love live-streaming. The longer I do this, the more I realize I am creating a type of video documentary of my life, capturing different moments, thoughts, feelings, and energies. Over the years I've even documented the beginnings and endings of multiple relationships. I think many of you are able to relate to at least some of my experiences, and it's awesome to have connected with so many awesome humans in just a few short years. I love what I do and I just want to keep doing it!
Feel free to email me if you have any questions about any of this. I know it's a pretty big life change, though I've been trying to keep my streaming content relatively consistent.
I'm still streaming predominantly gaming over on Twitch, and I've started very regular TikTok live streams from yoga to homework to poolside chats, it reminds me a lot of the old Periscope vibe. We're almost at 60k followers on there, too! When we get to 100k, we unlock a new level of monetization!! I plan to catch up on some Youtube book review of a couple books I've read, and I want to get DBD School 103 recorded, edited, and posted on there. You can also check out my "spicy" NSFW adult content on OnlyFans.
I'll be honest, it's a bit intimidating paying all the bills 100% solo, so if you're wondering how you can help, I put a couple housewarming type items on my Amazon wishlist, or you can just support the channel like you always can at https://nexjuice.com/support.
Love you guys. Appreciate y'all reaching out for a chat now more than ever, too. Onward and upward! I'm excited to see what's next for us.
Love,
Taylor aka "Nex" |
