My body is not mine.

This is how I've felt most of my life... I'm not saying I don't value my body or I don't experience pleasure from it. But I've always felt that I needed to be a certain way or act a certain way to please other, especially with sexuality. 

Society places women in the position of servitude, whether that is being the nice girl, the princes, the sexy lover or even the perfect body to make babies.

I've done all that and now after having a daughter I am starting to question why I did things. Was it really because I wanted to feel pleasure or simply because I wanted to prove a point and fill my cup with the approval of others?

This especially is arising as my daughter grows older and I encounter her experience of becoming a young girl and the pressures imposed by society.

I want her to grown loving her body and accepting herself and to put herself before others. Not in a selfish way but in a self-loving way so she doesn't confuse that what she is doing with her body is for another or if it is it is because she wants to do it and there is no pressure to fulfil the other persons needs to be accepted.

I want her to learn this but first I must learn to accept myself for who I am and reclaim my own body. Empower the reality that yes society has imposed the sexualization of my body because I am a woman, but this sexualization doesn't need to define me nor should it limit the way I want to live my life.

It's starts with us women to feel accepted and know our needs, our boundaries, learning to say no and also learning to say yes. Also learning that it's ok to change your mind in the middle.

I am ready to embark the path of acceptance and be able to teach my daughter there is a different path. Will you join this path?

Much love,
Ona