(We have three participants who have moved into better living situations this past month! Because of your generosity, we were able to support them in their moves! Thank you! And thanks to Erol Ahmed on Unsplash for the photos used above.)
A STORY OF FAITH:
The needs are always great; the time line always feels urgent:
But here is the invitation in the midst of great need and great urgency: to live on the edge. Not on the edge of anxiety. Not on the edge of control. But on the edge of faith.
"If I don't come through, who will?" I could hear the old refrain starting to play again. It's an old coping mechanism of mine. A trauma response of, "I can only trust myself," that's disguised in a Midwestern, "can-do" spirit. I first recognized it through counseling in my early 20's, and even though I'm now in my late 30's, it still rears it's head every once in a while.
That's the work that I have to do - to untwist what has been twisted by trauma or fear.
But when I work through it, I come to a place of faith because my God always comes through. Always. It may not look like I thought it would. It may not be what I wanted to happen. But God always is there, lovingly pulling for me and my good. And here's the thing - God is pulling for you and your good, too. And God is pulling for our participants and their good, too.
When I work through my old trauma response, I see that there is an entire community of people standing at the ready to help through gifts and donations and time and relationship. When I work through it, God opens my perspective to see that God has put the resources of heaven at our disposal to positively impact poverty, abuse, neglect, violence, sexual exploitation, human trafficking and more.
I just need to stand firmly on the edge - not giving into my old coping mechanisms to muscle through, and not giving into the fear of the future and what it holds. But standing firmly on the edge, waiting for God to come through - often through God's people - and always in miraculous ways. If I can just stay standing in this tension, I know my God will come through.
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