I have been having difficulty thinking of the “Personal” portion of this email today.
In fact, I have been having issues with writing all parts of this email lately.
The biggest reason is that I am struggling to find my groove in a new location and finding a consistent routine. Oddly enough, a routine encourages me to be creative and forward-thinking.
When I do things without thinking about them, I often find my most creative and thoughtful self.
But as I wrote previously and shared in a recent podcast, discipline is about doing things when you don’t have the motivation to do them. And that is why I am writing.
I have a looming fear with my family’s recent move that we made the wrong decision. I notice that everyone else is thrilled with our new location, except maybe me. It is not that I am unhappy, just not necessarily happy at this moment. In fact, when I look at my kids, I have never seen them so happy, and the same is true with Paige. I feel off, but when I am struggling with the decision, I look at them and know we did the right thing.
At the very minimum, I know we might not stay in Orlando forever, which is okay. But it was the right move to leave Edmonton. I was feeling stuck, and I needed a change of scenery.
Right now, I am not “stuck” as much as I am “off,” and I look to other things to have a better understanding of what I have learned from in my past to help me move forward in the future.
The most significant change I made with my weight loss was my eating habits. I hoped so badly that I could out-exercise a bad diet, but it wasn’t going to happen. How I ate before was a constant stream of unhealthy food and the occasional salad to try and remedy my bad decisions. Obviously, it didn’t work.
So I committed to eating healthy.
And at the beginning, it was challenging. I often felt like I was starving and had to remind myself that was a feeling but not a reality, and I had more than enough fuel to burn in my body. It was a discomfort I knew I had to get through, but it was still a challenge.
But as I started to make healthy eating part of my routine and the unhealthy meal the “once-in-awhile,” I noticed that I felt better. In fact, I began to realize that I ate so poorly before that feeling “gross” (lethargic, exhausted) was so normal to me that I hadn’t noticed. But when I have that “treat meal” now and then, I often feel off and know I don’t want to return to that as my default feeling.
And maybe that is what I am going through now.
The shift I am making in my personal life is in that “transitional” phase where I struggle to move from the unhealthy to the healthy. But this is all a reminder that although it is a period of transition, on the other side, is something better.
And as I finished writing this, my old buddy Odom reminded me that even when it is hard to find, you should still try to look for the sunshine. A promising sign from a good friend.
Just writing that helped me, and I hope, if you are at the beginning, middle, or end of a positive routine change you are making, something in there helped you as well :)
Have a great weekend and week ahead! Thanks for all that you do!
Sincerely,
George Couros